Man now I’m starting to feel bad. To hear that my mom is talking to her human resource department to see what kind of help they could get to help me finish paying for school. This is getting worse. Because it’s coming to that point where they won’t be able to pay for my college tuition any more!…This sucks!
I really hate students that do no take advantage of financial aid. There are people that are so stupid. They could go to college and getting all there school paid for and decide not to go! I would wish to be in that person’s spot just to use up there financial aid money and not be struggling in paying for college housing, food and shit!
This also makes me hate people who get financial aid and don’t use for good use! They take advantage of it and use it to buy them selfs i phones laptops that they don’t need and shit so much other shit just to be caught up with the trend.
These people don’t deserve financial aid. There are those people that wish had it, there are those people that wouldn’t have to take up another job just to pay for school or help our parents pay for something and then at the end be stuck with hella loans!
Fuck all this is just making me think if its all worth it! It better be!
I am not just putting in all this money and years in to this college to not get a degree to be able to pay my parents back!
Man this just disappoints me! Perhaps I should have just stayed in los banos and started off with community college there. Perhaps I should have never gone here then i would be saving my parents thousands of dollar saving there time and money…Me not going into dept once i get out of college…oh man all this sucks!!
I just hope it pays off and all this is worth it!…I need to find ways to pay for this!..I NEED TOO!!!
$5 of butterflies from the dollar store later and I’m liking this wall more. May rearrange into a tidier swirl later, the joy of restickables meaning I may also simply scatter little butterfly flocks around the apartment ….
Fuckers if you see dishes in the fucken sink fucken wash them!…Its that that fucken hard. You get a little bit of fucken soap, and water and you fucken scrub its not that fucken hard!!!!
I fucken slave my ass cleaning this fucken dirty ass house all my fucken weekend and you didn’t care to fucken help me!…Fuckers saw me washing all your fucken dishes and sweeping and vacuming and all of you fuckers all you did was sit ur lazy asses on the fucken couch and fucken watch tv and not care to fucken help…I fucken swear!
If I knew living with these lazy asses I would have just lived by myself!
These people are so fucken dirty they can’t even clam up to washing there own fucken dishes…
Fuck fuck fuck…I am so fucken pissed!!!!
I hate this stupid dog as well!…His fucken dirty shit has been all over the fucken kitchen and they don’t even to fucken bother and clean that up!!!
I fucken cleaned the fucken entire kitchen and they don’t even bother to fucken take out the fucken trash!!!!!
I fucken just keep tying the fucken trash bags and waiting if one of those lazy asses takes it out!!
I am so fucken tired of picking up after all of their fucken trash and shit!!!
Ugh I just want that don’t out of this house…Our fucken carpet is dirty as fuck and our entire kitchen smells like shit!!
Ugh!!! I’m not their fucken little mexican servant who is gonna be picking up after there shit all the time!!
There’s so much I wanna do but I fell like I just keep putting it aside…Idk why I’m not afraid to have a new start a knew me with new people. But I guess that’s just hard when you see everyone you use to know around and just seem to wave but not know you know you. This weekend was good…Good rest good sleep…not much stress…Just a lot of thinking lately!…I haven’t wrote on here and its been a while…but starting tomorrow my annoying posts will start again….Perhaps if I vent my emotions my every day actions on this blog of mine then perhaps that will make me realize what is actually wrong or make me realize the changes I will start to make soon.
I like the fact that this quarter I’ve gotten to spend a lot more time with my two best friends from freshmen year..Those two girls are like sisters to me!…I just wish I stuck with them all along and never really went my own way. But again things happen for reasons…any ways…Lately its been like non stop thinking…What am i really getting out of life…There are days where I feel full of joy and then there are those where I just want to be left alone forever..haha…it’s kinda like I’m bipolar…but of course not..I suck it up and go on with my day.
The people you think you trust are sometimes the people that through you under the boat…There’s times where you just can’t handle peoples shit anymore and you just want to be left alone to think and think and see what in the world you are really doing with your life….
I have it set…I’ve set a goal and this will be accomplished…It’s possible!…Perhaps it may take a while but in order for me to feel better about my self this has to be done…No more stupid shit on just saying…I’m doing this!…Tomorrow I start so we’ll see how this turns out!…Best of luck to me!

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